Thursday, December 31, 2009

getting ready for the New Year...with a sidekick!

Every couple of weeks I get myself to refocus what constitutes as a problem and what does not because I often get lost. I get jumbled up in other people's values and goals instead of my own and end up sidetracked. So now that I have my head put back on and my mind isn't all foggy in other stupid's agendas, here's my mini sketch of a plan...

Since I have already applied to a bunch of places for the summer season that are around the states, if something like that lines up and I end up with a seasonal job, I'll jump aboard that. That way I can make some money and go away somewhere I haven't been before...

BUT, if something like that doesn't happen, and I'll know by probably around March or April? then I want to go abroad on a volunteer trip. I've been researching countries and opportunities and there's SO much out there. I can take the safe route and try another Westernized European country, OR, I can try a different more third world country. The ones I have taken an interest in are...Thailand....and well, Thailand. Something like Thailand would be fun. I want to go for somewhere in South Africa, possibly India, but those scare me a little bit more then Thailand does. Especially if I'm going by myself...

but THAILAND! oohhhh sound like fun! and not only would it help me to spread my wings a little, help others a lot but it would also help me to explore what I really want to do in life. Which is? Well I'm not quite sure, but I think I want it to involve helping others and education and stuff like that. Like, what I really want to advocate is spreading the quality of life and putting out the idea that the world runs around ourselves. Because it doesn't. I want to make a difference in the lives of others and now I just need to figure out how I want to do, in what capacity. So, it's a start!

Monday, December 28, 2009

Pay It Forward (2000)

Trevor McKenney: I guess it's hard for people who are so used to things the way they are - even if they're bad - to change. 'Cause they kind of give up. And when they do, everybody kind of loses.

The Fifth Element (1997)

Leeloo: Everything you create, you use to destroy.
Korben Dallas: Yeah, we call it human nature.

Priest Vito Cornelius: I know she's made to be strong, but she's also so fragile, so human. Know what I mean?

Sunday, December 27, 2009

Pulp Fiction (1994)

Fabienne: I was looking at myself in the mirror.
Butch: Uh-huh?
Fabienne: I wish I had a pot.
Butch: You were lookin' in the mirror and you wish you had some pot?
Fabienne: A pot. A pot belly. Pot bellies are sexy.
Butch: Well you should be happy, 'cause you do.
Fabienne: Shut up, Fatso! I don't have a pot! I have a bit of a tummy, like Madonna when she did "Lucky Star," it's not the same thing.
Butch: I didn't realize there was a difference between a tummy and a pot belly.
Fabienne: The difference is huge.
Butch: You want me to have a pot?
Fabienne: No. Pot bellies make a man look either oafish, or like a gorilla. But on a woman, a pot belly is very sexy. The rest of you is normal. Normal face, normal legs, normal hips, normal ass, but with a big, perfectly round pot belly. If I had one, I'd wear a tee-shirt two sizes too small to accentuate it.
Butch: You think guys would find that attractive?
Fabienne: I don't give a damn what men find attractive. It's unfortunate what we find pleasing to the touch and pleasing to the eye is seldom the same.

Saturday, December 26, 2009

Alice In Wonderland (1951)

Alice: I simply must get through!
Doorknob: Sorry, you're much too big. Simply impassible.
Alice: You mean impossible?
Doorknob: No, impassible. Nothing's impossible.

Thursday, December 24, 2009

Feeling super gloaty. I got an A in the class I thought I was failing and I got a B in the other class! For once, I feel like a good student. I'm glad I went to school this semester because this definitely gave me a CAN DO attitude. Hopefully next semester will be just as good :)

Monday, December 21, 2009

Wise words of jay-z

They Talk, We Live, We see what They say, They say, They say
They Talk, We Did, Who cares what They say, They say, They say

...I'm obsessed with his new album. His lyrics are like...better than the bible

Saturday, December 19, 2009

I signed up for another semester at my dear ol' college. gaaaah

This coming semester I am taking four classes:
1 MW nights
2 TTh day
1 Th night

I figured it's best to stop being so immature. The Earth isn't going to die in the six months I am attending school and I will be able to go away for summertime. I have an entire lifetime ahead of me. I need to take advantage of now and get an education and ready myself for my future escapades.

Goals: Pass Classes. Not be a dropout. Be happy. Feel happy.
Christmas music makes me gag.

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

My most common string of thoughts: Am I too honest? Am I too sincere? When will I learn that people do not say what they mean? When will I learn...Why don't I learn? Why do I give people so much benefit of the doubt? ...I really need to cut this out. Christina cut this out! Christina don't get pessimistic......Christina?

A common problem of mine.

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

find a penny pick it up
then all day
you'll have good luck

Monday, December 14, 2009

My favorite part of the day is when I get to pick out what underwear I am going to wear. It's my little secret. From the cut to the color, it's all mine and only for me to know, usually. Underwear is just that little thing that can make you feel wonderful and amazing and sexy. Yes, even I can feel sexy. Surprising, right? And underwear makes me curious because I can't help but to wonder what other people are wearing under their clothes. If I'm wearing this, than they could SO be wearing that. And you'd never know...


next topic.


Saturday, December 5, 2009

my lovely

Iron and Wine makes me feel at home, but at the same time makes me want to run away.
to drive away.

Right now it's just me and Zayda, the dog. He's the only thing that is giving me company when I really need it. To say that I am unhappy would be an understatement. To say that I am sad is too dramatic. So, lets just say I am not content.

I am not content with my friends, my living situation, my money situation, my whereabouts, etc.

In January I will have found money somehow and I am going to go somewhere.
I say this a lot.
But for once, I have places to go.
Because I know people now.