Educational: Freegans

A quick Freegan search gave me the following:



Good Informational:

Wikki Article

Freegan Website

Articles:

NY Times Article showing examples of Freeganism

Freegan Q&A "cool" article

Oprah's article on Freegans

What I think:
Coming soon.

OH HAPPY DAY!

DO YOU FEEL THE JOY IN THIS PICTURE?
YOU SHOULD. IT IS FULL OF IT.
JOY, THAT IS.

I think that it was in January that I got really upset with a guy that I formerly had liked. I started telling him the things that I just COULD NOT stand about him. We got into critiques and flat out honesty and what not and then he told me something. He told me that I was being too needy. Do you know what I told him? I AM needy. I am a human being. We, as a collective species, are needy. There is no doubt about it. Why deny myself? Don't overthink it. Let that thought pass. Move on.

I am definitely not needy, well, the kind of needy that is bad. I think. I just need to be needed.

I think.

or, at least, be wanted around.
...maybe not everyday, but a few times a week.

we don't have to even talk.
just enjoy each others company.

that's what I enjoy.
I enjoy other people's enjoyment.

I (actually) live for it.

Three episodes of the new 90210 and a Southpark later and what am I thinking about? What kind of person I want to be. It's boggling my mind. It really is. It also made me want to share my journalish output that I wrote this morning while at Starbucks with my two most cherished friends Chelsey and Jlee. They were studying for a math test and I was "doodling" and blasting Taylor Swift (don't make fun of me) in my tender ears.

*Despite the flowers and heart bs all over the page, I am not really all that much of a girly girl. Just fyi.

Napping Update

Uh-oh, I just woke up. This is no good. Napping is to never exceed two hours in length if the time napping begins in the middle hours of night (middle hours of night are 4pm-6pm). My nap began at around 6pm. I woke up at about 9pm. Like I said, no good. Am I fearful right now? Yes. Why you ask? WHAT HAPPENS IF I AM AWAKE ALL NIGHT AND GO TO SCHOOL LIKE A ZOMBIE TOMORROW?!?!?!?!?

shiet.

Nap Time.

I am very conscious of my energy. I was reminded of this as I prepared myself to take a nap just now.

Scurrying about my room I was trying to find every basic necessity I may need in case I woke up and needed something. You might be thinking, well why don't you just get out of your bed if you need something during the napping time? And that is a mighty fine question to ask, I ask myself that all the time. BUT, my friends, and this is a big but, WHAT happens if during that nap time period I had achieved the perfect temperature/feeling/all around state AND WAS FORCED TO LEAVE? Yeah. What happens then? It may be unachievable at another time/moment. Yeah. I am worried of ruining that, in case it happens (and it commonly does), and that is what forces/motivates me to prepare better for napping times.

Before napping periods I use the restroom and I collect the following numerous items to put beside my bed. I also change my clothes, which is a process within itself.

Items For Bed Area During Napping Period:

• Cellular Phone
  
• Bottled Water
• Snack item (today: chips)
• Gum
  
• Book to read (today: Night)
  
• Radio remote to control the radio with to skip cd tracks, change to radio, etc.
• CD player in case my mood shifts and I need something else to listen to
• Notebook/Journal in case I get an amazing idea/story/something to write down
• Numerous blankets of varying thickness

Napping Wardrobe:

• Pajama Pants
• T-shirt
• Comfortable conservative underwear
• Sports Bra/Tank Topish undershirt
• Socks

The clothes are important. I start the nap in warm clothes, but am ready to start taking off layers in case it gets too warm. Also, the clothes are important because if (in the off chance) I forgot to lock my doors, or there was a locking of the door mix-up and the door remained unlocked when thought to be locked, I would not want someone to catch me in the nude. I mean, right? So I must have the appropriate, most comfortable, clothes on/nearby for the best safe napping environment. Clothes are also important because what happens if there were a fire/natural disaster during your nap and then you had to leave suddenly and a news crew comes to capture the scene and you end up being that ONE person who was "girl saved from burning house while napping naked"- that would be no good. I think, anyway.

Typically when I nap I lock my doors. The locking of doors is important to ensure privacy and a good, quiet, constant napping environment. There is nothing more annoying than parents/sisters/brother/others popping into your room to disturb you from the (what may be) best nap of your life. Am I right?

Now you ask what about bedtime?
Different story.
Whole new routine.
MUCH more serious routine.
Yes.

...now I may nap.
Be back in two ish hours.

To the man with the unrelenting stare @ Agua y Viento:

I know that I am absolutely amazingly beautiful wearing my black dress and colorful necklace today (sarcasm), but I would greatly appreciate it if you could give me some privacy and stop giving me the heebie jeebies with your non-stop creepy gaze. Thanks mutha flipper.

I just went to the grocery store. I like the grocery store (in case you wanted to know).

Any who, I went in to buy some disposable razors to, you know, shave my legs with, and shiiiet, and I came out with the razors AND four boxes of cereal and one carton of soy milk.

I am feeling pretty satisfied.

Cereal Bought:

• Honey Bunches of Oats, Honey Roasted
• Honey Bunches of Oats, with Almonds
• Frosted Mini Wheats
• Quaker Oatmeal Squares with a Hint of Brown Sugar

I like oatie things. I guess.
and soy milk too.

I also enjoy a fresh shave. I had to buy those (the razors) because I forgot my legit razor at the apartment where I took my shower on Friday, when we had no hot water because we didn't pay the bill (NOT BECAUSE WE ARE POOR! STOP JUDGING MEEE/US!).

Tomorrow I will sign up for classes. Did I tell you that I cried today over that? Because I did. I got very upset that

1. I have to go to school
   
2. My classes won't freakin' make a good schedule
3. ...I have to go back to school

My dad saw me crying, in my room, well not crying as much as pouting, and asked me what was up and THAT was when I started crying. So I told him I did not wish to go back to school. He told me that I have summer soon and that by the time it's over I will be ready for school again. My dad is nice. I fear that he may be wrong. I am, however, willing to give it (school) another shot before taking a break. Maybe next semester will revive me? I SURE HOPE SO!

Things I am looking forward to:

• Gym Pass
• Dancing on a weekly basis
• Numerous Summer Adventures (ex: BISBEE, ARIZONA!)
• School being over with
• Eating my cereal tonight

Oh, when I was walking out of Vons I remembered that the Del Taco in that parking lot has a dining room that is open until 2 am every day. I want to be that girl that goes to Del Taco every night to buy an order of Crunchy french fries and eats it there. I would if it weren't for the windows that line the entire Del Taco restaurant. Too many windows makes you especially vulnerable to drive-by shootings. For some reason I have been scared of that for a very long time. Fast Food Restaurant+ Too Many Windows= nothing good. RIGHT?!

oh, and another oh.

I went lazer tagging on Friday. It made me very upset. First of all, I got last out of twenty-five people. But most of all because I was actually scared inside of the lazer tagging area. There were too many people I didn't know. Too many guys that were foreign to me. And it was dark with the fog machine going and I almost had a panic attack. I ended up just standing in what I found to be "safe" spots and that's why I got last. Which sucked. I just kept getting shot at. But at least being in that spot I felt safe, and was able to keep my calm. I didn't cry. So, you know. Yeah. I don't think I will go inside a lazer tag place like that for awhile. It also probably did not help that I was really tired because I had been awake since 5am, and by that point it was 11pm. not to make excuses, or anything.

In a matter of weeks I will be able to venture somewhere far, far away.

My Adventure To-do List:

• Take Metro/Amtrak/Public Transportation somewhere amazing/random/fun

....ok, that's it for now.

“In everyone's life, at some time, our inner fire goes out. It is then burst into flame by an encounter with another human being. We should all be thankful for those people who rekindle the inner spirit.”

-Albert Schweitzer, 1952 Nobel Peace Prize Winner

“To the question whether I am a pessimist or an optimist, I answer that my knowledge is pessimistic, but my willing and hoping are optimistic”

-Albert Schweitzer , 1952 Nobel Peace Prize Winner

Weekend Job:

I am basically a tired perky housekeeper on my weekend mornings.

It is quite enjoyable.
Envy me.
Yes.

2 Mikes Lemonades, 3 shots, and an individual sized cup of Coco Puffs later

This was after the majority of the night and without much rationality. We had already frolicked our way down the street to 7/11 and back. Ready for more fun...I guess.

Our reactions:

I just woke up on the couch suffocated in pillows and layered with chips, maybe a grape or two, on top of me. My friends are the best? I beg to differ.

I might need to throw up now.

some stuff you may want to know

I found out why my room smells: they put the shitty kid clothes in my room. The shitty kid clothes were just discovered under the towel I had casually tossed unknowingly on top of them about a week ago.

My sister pee'd herself in the grocery store. I made her laugh too hard. She came home to change her undies and realized it's been awhile since she last did laundry. Now she's wearing the back up granny panties. Yes, the ones that go up to the belly button.

We're having movie night. Movie Night #3. It's probably going to be Secret Garden. We've watched Madagascar and Closer. It's me and my sister and two dudes. Somehow we always end up getting what we want. It's the charm? ...yeah.

We named the snail that lives on our door step. Sally. Short for Salvador. Inspired by the cat who lives across the street named Lucy. Short for Lucifer. Sally is much MUCH more cooler than Lucy.

Oh, and our gas got turned off because apparently my dad wasn't getting the electronic bill thing sent to him, or something. WE AREN'T POOR! STOP JUDGING ME! The step-mom used the rest of the hot water. GAH.
...but I have stuff to do tomorrow, I'm supposed to be SMELLY?!

I need chapstick. oh wait, I have some. hahaha MADE YOU PANIC! not.

Sally the Snail:

OH, and I just remembered another OH worthy thing.

We (me and Jlee) will be going to Pizza Hut soon*
The lunch time buffet is calling our name
I mean, BUFFET, need I say more?
Interested? Let me know!

*within the next week or so, hopefully, probably on a tuesday or thursday.

Lunch.

Today Jlee and I went to Boudin's in Costa Mesa. We had New England Clam Chowder in Sour Dough bread bowls. Basically delicious, but a different type of delicious than used to describe the $1 Cinnamon Rolls we ate at Ikea, also in Costa Mesa. It was a great meal, we will be going back.
Oh, and Jlee saw the catering advertisment picture and decided she wanted it [the cater plate] because of the :::drum roll please::: CHEESE. Yeah. For the cheese. Maybe (I will) have a get together and be sure to get it, just for my friend. The things I do.
Oh, and another OH, I browsed the Ikea page. And well, I realized I have been missing out on the full Ikea experience. All these years I have only been enjoying the daytime Bistro/Cafe food after buying assorted goods, when I COULD be going at night for the Restaurant deals and buying of assorted goods. I mean, um, Wednesday night 1/2 Ribs for $7.99? I may have to try that. [Sorry, you can eat my cornbread Chelsey]

You are the music while the music lasts. ~T.S. Eliot

How I began my day:
Had some coffee.

“Starbucks says they are going to start putting religious quotes on cups. The very first one will say, 'Jesus! This cup is expensive!'”
~ Conan O'Brien

Went to school where I listened to my iPod in the comforts of my car until my dearest friend Aaron arrived. We walk to class together on allotted days....like Tuesdays and Thursdays. We mostly talk about frivolous things, fun things really.

While I was waiting, some may say that I was ASTAIRing towards his usual parking spot, while simultaneously texting him good morning & seemingly important at the time unimportant things.
It's how we do.

Evidence of responsibility, however slight.

My math class was canceled for today, and I had a test in my Geology Lab class, so I actually decided to go to the library (beforehand) and study. Amazing, right? It only lasted for about twenty minutes before I left to go sit outside on the grass and listen to music. BUT, that twenty minutes made a difference. I felt it when I took the test. WOOP WOOP!!!

Recently decided.

I want to have my own radio show.
I will have no guest speakers.
It will be JUST ME.
Because I am the best.
Always.
Don't question that.

My radio show will be really good.
well made.
funny.
serious.
Just enough of anything you ever wanted to keep you coming back.
for more.
to keep you coming back for more.

Does it bother you that sometimes I capitalize the beginning letter of my sentences and sometimes I do not? It bothers me. BUT, when I capitalize it (the beginning letter) the sentence feels different, so then I uncapitalize it. Capital letters just feel really...mean

...on some words
yuh know?

Before I start my radio show I need to get a new computer/equipment and figure out how to distort my voice. to protect my identity. like, DUH.

Just a quick update.

I was forced to clean my room this morning.

I AM TWENTY YEARS OLD!

I should not be forced to clean my room.
The injustices of living at home.
ugh.


(I'm kidding)
((No, but seriously, have they not heard of INDIVIDUALITY?!))
(((definitely not kidding about that one)))
((((as much))))
(((((no, but SERIOUSLY, a messy room is my...)))))
(((((((NEVER MIND! you obviously do not care))))))
[jhfaljfhadsflhaf]
{{expletives here}}

Last night I had my horrible headache, remember? Well when I walked into my room last night I went "AGGGH DAMMIT MORNING CHRISTINA! CLEAN UP YOUR SHHIIIIIIEEET! gawd."

My room was awful.
I couldn't concentrate as a result.
So, instead of cleaning it up, I went to bed at 10:30pm last night.

I woke up this morning and looked at my messy room and noticed one of my nasty little room habits. I step out of my pants and leave them there on the ground. Like, unbotton, let fall/wriggle out, and step out. Leaving the pants there, stepped out on, on the ground. Let me show you.

Stepping out of pants:





I'm thinking that I am not the only person to do this, but it disturbs me none-the-less.
I will work on my bad behaviors.
Less stepping out of pants and leaving them there to be stepped into on later day doings will be occurring.

maybe.

"I know I may be young, but I've got feelings too. And I need to do what I feel like doing. So let me go and just listen."

-Britney Spears, I'm a Slave for You

I have had the most killer headache this afternoon.
The only possible reasons I can think of are:

1. dehydrated?
2. late late late effect of the 3/4 bottle of white wine I had last night at dinner?
3. being punished for skipping class to go to the mall?
4. tiny brain tumors

On my mind WAY too much as of lately:

• karma
• time
• dedication/commitment & input/output
  
• life goals
• character/personality traits that I aspire to distinguish/nurture
• selfishness
• virtue vs. morals
  

4/21/09: Mission Viejo Mall Trip w/Jlee

Drove to Mission Viejo.

Saw some ninjas.

JLee had her interview! It felt like a success! (we'll see)Visited the food court.

Watched some guys make our food.

Ate some food.

Did some shopping.

Had some awkwardness.

Went back to the car.

Drove home.

What a day.

WAKE UP!

IT
IS
A
BEAUTIFUL
DAY!

I could only stand 15 minutes of history before busting outside to the great outdoors.